"Revenge Is Sweeter (Than You Ever Were)"

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I saw it in the news You told me they were wrong And I stood up for you 'Cause I believed you were the one You had all the chances in the world To let me know the truth What the hell's wrong with you? Are you even listening when I talk to you? Do you even care what I'm going through? Your eyes stare and they're staring right through me You're right there but it's like you never knew me Do you even know how much it hurt, When you gave up on me to be with her? Revenge is sweeter than you ever were I'm so mad at you right now I can't even find the words And you're on the way down I can't wait to see you burn You try to make me hate that girl When I should be hating you What the hell's wrong with you? Nothing can save you now that it's over I guess that you'll find out when you're no one Don't say you're sorry now 'cause I just don't care

Pesan ayah ...

One thing that i like the most about my dad is the fact that he always write a note in the front page of every book that he bought for his children. For him, the notes are like reminders for us.

This is what my dad wrote in my notebook that he gave it to me at the airport before i flew to Aukland,

"Dear Kak Min,

you make us proud.
Use your time wisely.
Sembahyang adalah satu ibadah dan juga akidah.

I love you.

Ayah
(Mon-18/02/2008)

PLEASE!!

people
please
im begging you
please
stop giving me hope
im tired
im not strong like before
i cannot stand it anymore
i cannot pretend anymore
i cannot fake this smile anymore
please..
no more~

thanks mum

couple of days ago, i called my mum and finally she did answering my call which means that it was the 2nd time we had our conversation for all this year. well, we spoke about several stuff since it is hardly for my mum and i to communicate and meet each other.it reminds me that when i was an adolescent, i always felt that she never care care about me, she proud of nothing about me and she do nothing for me except for helping me to see this wonderful (sometimes )by giving birth to me. however, there was one thing that she mentioned which made me feel that she also know something about me.during our 'mum and daughter' conversation, she said, " Don't always keep everything inside. I know you always keep things in your heart since you were young." Her words make me realize that it is true...I always listen and listen to what people say. but, its hard for me to let people to listen on what i feel. actually,i hate myself for having this kind of demeanor. i just can't see myself expressing something to others. at this moment, i just want my mum to know that it is hard for me to express what i feel to people and she should know she is the reason for that..I always want you to listen to me from the beginning of my life but you we're not there until now.You are the one who teach me to keep it everything since your life is to busy with more important people but me...and for that i thank you~

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Boys Are Hard To Please....

Boys Are Hard To Please
The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with
him;
If u Dont, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Dont, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, hell lose FACE;
If hes Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u dont Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are
TROUBLESOME;
If u dont, he says that u dont TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMEN.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says its LUCK;
If he does WELL, its BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard
to please!!!!!

me ..lately~

Ida Scott Taylor once wrote:

""..Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering...""