Just another few days ...

Just another few days ..

1. hitting to a new year '2010'
2. spending precious moment at home
3. heading back to KL/IPBA
4. starting a new life in the hostel
5. gonna see someone soon

New Year ... Excited? Happy? Sad? I dunno.. mixed feeling. And i cant draw any expectation on what will happen.Why? I learned that expectation (no matter how high and low) able to destroy heaps of things around me as well as myself. .my self esteem, self confidence and perception. I believe in just giving a chance on anything..

words

Unconsciously,
your small simple words have stabbed my heart so many times.

At this time,
I don't have enough painkillers and band aids to stop the pain.

I just need some space to stop the bleeding ...

According to you

According to you
I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult, hard to please, forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time, even if it would save my life.
According to you.
According to you.

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not, according to you.

According to you
I'm boring, I'm moody, you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span; you're the boy who puts up with it.
According to you.
According to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay.

According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.

But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible, he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible, everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,


i like the song especially the lyric. But i prefer him as the old you. hurmm ...

Cenge!!

Cenge? what is dat?apa tuh? well, my dearest ladies and gentleman,the word 'cenge' refers to the aggressive in temperament which in line with the word 'fierce'.

okay, basically, this entry is made due to my dad's act of 'cenge'ness' lately. Last week my mum did tell me that recently (these 2 years) my dad becomes too cenge and she does not know why. I thought that my mum just bluffing or maybe she over sensitive but today I have to agree with her. I kind realize that these few days, my dad always becomes so moody and always scold us verbally even just for simple mistakes..hurrmm.IDK why he acts this way. Maybe he feels a bit tired or as my mum said he got menopause.lol.

Aku mau kurus!!!

okay, apparently I gain some weight since i eat a lot and less walk. Due to this major problem, i have to or i NEED to diet. Please Min..help yourself.less eat and more work out.

im HOME ...

Im glad to be home
to be close to people who i love the most
to be back after nearly two years

but
the truth is

sometime
i miss Auckland
i miss my life in Auckland
i miss
the calm
the people
the atmosphere
i miss the old you

now ..
i have to face the reality
Im home...
to the place where i belong.

My 1st poem

If I lost you
I lost everything that I had
I lost my memories with you
Then,
I will lost you ...

Note: I wrote this 'so-called' poem when I was 7 years old (standard 1)when I determined to send a card to my mom but I didn't. I still have the card and my handwriting was really awful...haha~