I should remain silent

Judging from the way I feel tonight
I believe you just might prove me right

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1 Thing 2 Say 3 Words 4 You


" I love You"

but,lately ... I kinda realize
I should keep these words unspoken
because I don't want you
to say
" I love you too"
cos
sometimes I know
you really didn't mean it


love is hard to handle
minty mints 2009

tiang - tiang lampu dekat highway

once
aku dah tak suka
aku nampak
engkau
macam tiang lampu
dekat highway
nothing ...

a piece of memory between my dad and i

Other than saying I love you, ayah surely will always remind me "don't trust anyone". since i was in primary school until now, ayah keep reminding me about that. when i was young, i was not sure why ayah kept saying the same thing over and over.Due to ayah's advise,it is hard for me to trust anyone. However, as a human, i did make a mistake. i did trust someone.. a lot.i blinded by the person action at the beginning of our relationship. it hurts when you trust someone a lot. it is like, you try to move on but something hold your back..Ayah, im so sorry.im so stupid.

i still remember when i told ayah i already has a bf when i was 18. I was so afraid since i know ayah's reactions about these 'cinta' thingy. but i need to tell my dad instead of he gets to know it from others especially Tammy (my only sis).. I was in room watching tv with him. Suddenly, (in my language which my bf said tribe language..haish)

ayah: Dah ada boyfriend ka skrg?Ayah tgk msg x berenti ja la ni.
me: huh?mana ada..(i tried to deny 1st)
ayah: cakap btoi2 kt ayah.
me:hehe..ada. (smile but deep inside i felt like a huge train going to crash me)
ayah:ayah bukan apa..i just don't want to let anyone hurt my daughter's feeling. Ayah xmau tgk mimin teriak2.dari kecik ayah dah jaga elok2..
me:haish,watpa nak teriak plak?pelikla.min kuat..hehe.

Unfortunately, im not that kuat (tough)...

Saya sgt suka dan gembira..LOL

hahah..gelak dgn riang sebentar.im happy, im feeling good..LOL. mr.X a.k.a "Youknowwho" came to my house yesterday. I tried hard to ignore him as we had a fight the day before. As i was trying hard to not pay attention to him,he took out smtg from his black NIKE bag and showed it to me. OMG!! He bought me Crash of the Titans cd game for my XBOX.Suddenly, i melted...haha.so easy,kan?No. i tried to be calm but i really like the game.seriously.but, it is freaking expensive and i cant afford to buy the cd game as rite now im near to the state of bankruptcy.. *sobs*

to mr.x,

thank u so much..im soo happy and next time i nak merajuk lg :p

uncertainty ...

sometimes
i have a feeling that
my past
is pulling me
back
from discovering
the journey
of my unsure
future