Aku mau kurus!!!

okay, apparently I gain some weight since i eat a lot and less walk. Due to this major problem, i have to or i NEED to diet. Please Min..help yourself.less eat and more work out.

im HOME ...

Im glad to be home
to be close to people who i love the most
to be back after nearly two years

but
the truth is

sometime
i miss Auckland
i miss my life in Auckland
i miss
the calm
the people
the atmosphere
i miss the old you

now ..
i have to face the reality
Im home...
to the place where i belong.

My 1st poem

If I lost you
I lost everything that I had
I lost my memories with you
Then,
I will lost you ...

Note: I wrote this 'so-called' poem when I was 7 years old (standard 1)when I determined to send a card to my mom but I didn't. I still have the card and my handwriting was really awful...haha~

my hair ... 2008

Sabtu in Auckland ... 14 Nov 2009

woke up at half past 6
took a shower at 7
studied till half past 8
went to exam hall quarter to 9
had exam on quarter past 9 till half past 12
went to munchy mart after exam ... got free pie and drink (already expected..lol)
went to queen st and kroad
went back home at 4
slept till 6
ate burger - thanks to zeti and ati :)
went to fudtown (bought salmon and heaps of chocolate)
went to uni at half past 8
studied at level 3 with James
disturbed Karu while he was studying at the sofa
went home with Pkah quarter to 11
cooked roasted salmon with lemon sauce
still facebooking till now...

lesson for Today

money, popularity, fame ...
we ignore what truly matter
the simple things ...
like friendship, family, love
the things we probably already had.

Rumahku ...Syurgaku

This week, Dzeti officially becomes my new housemate. So, now our house full with people (Ati, Min, Pkah and Dzeti). BEST!! since, we can talk and gossip together as always.lol. But,dis week shud be our study week. we have 2 exams on dis week.Damn, i havent study yet. By today, im officially retired from Munchy mart..*sobs* no more extra money to shop around..no more extra NZD 1000 a month.

Shipping!!!

Just now, i sent 6 boxes of faliq's and my stuff to Malaysia..My house and room feel empty now. Suddenly, i feel so sad. I love Auckland.I wanna stay here more longer. PLEASE~

Latest obsession :P

denim jacket and floral skirt



mini black blazer


boyfriend jeans and white top



skinny jeans and shirt




big tee and skinny jeans or high waist skirt



well, recently i change my wardrobe AGAIN!!! i really into these outfits now. there are really simple and casual..this is me lately.LOL.

RAINS

It is raining
really BAD
in the morning
AND
Im still counting

weeks
days
minutes

to be near you

yours,
minty mints

Attention

Im going to buy an IPOD touch 3rd generation 32 gigs this week..hopefully since i was dreaming about it like few weeks. I should buy it earlier but what can i say? i spent most of my money to something else..SHOPPINg~ I just spent 800 dollars these 2 weeks only for shopping.GosHH.. I need to stop this effing habit of mine.5 pairs of new jeans in 2 weeks are not gud man ...still got 30 pairs of jeans. I can wear different jeans everyday in a months.LOL

She's the one that got away

Dear mama,

I wish I had the courage to talk to you.But, Im not that strong. I wanted to call you, but my ego is to high since Im waiting for all these few years for you to call. I just wanna say happy birthday ...i know your birthday is on October 22 but im not sure how old are you. Im so pathetic, rite? I should know how old my mum is.I wish you a happy life, a good health and may god bless you always.

Well,there is something I want you to know. I keep it for 16 years. For any reasons, I do forgive you. You neglected me, you rejected me, you left me but you still the one and only. I want to see you. I want to talk to you.But, I am afraid of getting my heart broken again.Cause you hurt me so bad and I am afraid to be vulnerable. And I know that doesn't matter now after what you did and i did. I just thought that you should know. This was how I spent most of the time in my life, wanting you... I'm just too scared to admit it.

Im glad to have ayah around me. I know he always tries his best to be both, mum and dad. To play your role. I admit that Im a bit jealous to know how happy you are with your new children, daughters and sons. But, grateful that ayah has done a good job in helping me to be better person. Im not sure either you still remember my face or not because I still remember yours. Bangjim and everyone said that I look exactly like you. Whenever he misses you, he will see my pictures..

Mama,

I want you to know.Im no more a little girl that you left 16 years ago. I have grown up. I wish you are able to see how mature I am now and how I look like now. Somehow, you had taught me to be independent and responsible. You taught me to be a good daughter and sister. I can say that im doing a pretty well in life and Wada is doing really good in her study. She just be announced as Young Business Idol 2009 in national level and score the best result in overall MUET in Kedah. We are really closed. Guess ayah must be really proud of her. She was 4 years old when you left her.Sometimes, she said she does not really have any memory with you. She was too young that time. All i want to say is Bangjim,Wada and I are doing well. You are still part of our lives eventhough you may say we are only your past. We miss you and once again , i wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY.





Bangjim



Mimin



Wada




p/s: I LOVE YOU ...

Something that I need ...

“Trust is like a vase.. once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.”

I wish I had been taught on how to trust when I was young. I did trust people when I was so young and few years back. Nevertheless, people kept on disappointing me. Heaps of promises, tonnes of sweet words ... loads of lies.

Somehow, I can feel ... I already lost the ability to trust.
Im not sure either it is good or not.

Since,

Walter Anderson once said,

“We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy”

thanks juniors :)

for all aucklanders cohort 5 IPBA, thanks for the lovely an=d thoughtful lunch.we had so much fun.it will be much enjoyable and happening if we have the opportunity to know u guys more in IPBA last few years :P

blogku bersarang sudehh...

lately, im so lazy to post any entry since i dun hv much time.working days and nites.tired but happy. i can say im so happy. happy to be around those wonderful people who appreciate u the way u are :) and of course i do miss my family and my bf so much.can wait to see them. just another few days.im so excited but deep inside my heart there is an ache.i mean i love to be here. i really like Auckland. there are so many things that make me happy and feel glad. seriously,i want to be here again..i wish i only go back home for summer and coming back. i wish i dun have any contract with the government.i wish i can bring all the people that i love in msia to here..i wish ...