Ashton's Advice

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter and Facebook is also fun. In some ways, its no different than sending flowers to the office - you are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn't like to be publicly adored?

- Ashton Kutcher

p/s : But then please stop telling people on how sweet your BF/GF is every half an hour. Just text , tweet or write to his/her wall. Not that I'm jealous, its a bit annoying sometimes ;P

"When a Man Loves a Woman"

Like always, in every American Idol season, there would be a bit of typical "Idol" manipulation, a heartstring-tugging ploy used often in the early rounds.

However, this is probably the most emotional American Idol story of Chris Medina, whose tragic tale about his fiancée's car crash elicited a strong response from the judges.



Personally, I don't consider Chris Medina to be an extraordinary singer and compare to most of the idols, he is not in their level ... YET.His voice is not that special compared to most the idols but then like Steven Tyler said to Chris's fiancee, "I swear he sings so good cos he sings to you"..it sounds so good cos he sings for his love one ;) I do believe he'll likely go far on the show because of he is a genuinely nice guy with a big heart.

I almost cried when he said, "What kind of a guy would i be if i walked out when she needed me the most". I think it's normal for a woman to treat her man like this but it's really hard to find a man who have the courage to treat his lady like Chris did.Overall, I only wish that he will stay the same eventhough he'll get famous and yes he is. People change to a certain extent ;)

Commitment

How fully do you commit yourself in a relationship?

Do you dare to commit?



Personally, COMMITMENT doesn't scare me, the thought of committing to the wrong person does.
Nothing is worse than knowing at the end, he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him.

A Simple Rule

If a guy paused his video game to text you back, marry him ;)

p/s: Same goes if he was watching TV, movie or doing some stuff in his room. A simple text like, 'I'm doing smtg. TTYL', will be great instead of nothing.

But then, if he chooses to ignore you, don't worry. Never stress about what's gone!!

Gentlemen never be a cheapskate! Cheap men are like cheap mascara. Both run when women cry. -Rick Warren

Things on Me

10 Things you would never have guessed about ME:

1. I tore my ligament twice on the same foot. And both happened in New Zealand (during Frisbee's training in Auckland and during the Bersatu Game in Wellington). In Auckland, the physio asked me not to join the Bersatu Game and I had to follow the therapy for 6 weeks.But then, my stubbornness led me to another incident which involved an ambulance in Wellington.lol.It was very annoying especially when you have to walk with a pair of crutches and everyone was looking at you with their 'sympathy eyes'.


2. I love Travel Discovery and Cuisine TV. I wish I could travel around the world and helping people. Hoping that my dad will kind enough to reconsider ASTRO again so that I able to watch Discovery Channel AGAIN!!. He terminated ASTRO since the twin boys have to seat for UPSR this year.

3. I can’t drive a car... YET!! Call me lame but I don't give a damnn.If only Malaysia were more like Europe or at least Auckland, public transport and scooter would be my best friends. And yes, of course walking sounds great too.

4. I have 2 secret ambitions, a writer and a fashion designer. Gimme 5 years to show you something ;)

5. I'm the most quite person among my siblings. yeah, you probably ROFLYAO rite now. Yes, I admit I talk a lot and really outgoing but then among all the debaters and story tellers in my family, I'm the quite one.



6. I love ANYTHING related to workout and my current obsessions these few months are yoga and hundred push ups. I do yoga around half to an hour a day while the hundred push ups usually 3 times a week. For the push ups, I normally will force myself to do hundred push ups in a time. Mind you, I'm not trying to be skinny.In fact, I hate to be skinny.I just want to tone my body.As I don't think I able to have a body like Kim Kardashian, Jessica Alba will be great ;)



7. I have a LOT of teddy bears and all of those were given by friends and secret admirers (lol) when I was in high school. I think around 25 to 30 teddy bears.

8. I could never turn vegetarian – why were we made carnivores otherwise?My resolution for past years was to be a vegetarian but then on the very first day of New Year itself, I always ended up eating MEAT..sigh~

9. Since I was 21, I never ask my parent for money. When I was in Auckland, I relied on the scholarship and my salary working part time in Uni. Then, when I came back to Malaysia, I still got a scholarship and got some saving in my account till now.This is a part of myself that I'm really proud of.I don't ask for money but then if my parent give me some, it will be very rude for me not to take ;)


10. I want to be the next Asha Gill, she is a Malaysia-based model, television host, deejay, veejay, writer, producer, film director, and women's rights activist. I want to be a Superwoman!!Despite the fact that the time is running out, I definitely love to see myself having good times doing something I really love to do. For that, I have to find a partner who is superSporting and outgoing and

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I have successfully found him.
HAHHAHAHA bet you guys know who he is ;)

High School of Mine

3 Things I'll always remember when I was a student:

1. My name was the first name on the 'Rekod Kesalahan Pelajar Asrama' when I was in Form 3. I was caught 'fly' not 'high'(lmao) by the warden on the first week of school.It was a usual thing for me when I was in high school. My friends and I was quite popular in hostel for our 'good' attitudes ;)I believe that my future students won't expect that I was a trouble maker years back. A teacher should be a good actress though.lol

The pic was taken when I was in Form 3 and I loved to wear a bandanna or a cap when I was in the hostel..Poyo rite?

2. I love sport and games especially sprint race distance like 100m and 4 by 100m and I entered numbers of those when I was in primary till back in college. When I was in Form 1, I was selected to represent my red house (Semarak Api)to run for a 100m.But, I was too scared as I knew that my competitors would be my friends who have pairs of long legs and of course muscular bodies compared to me which was and still SHORT. Therefore, what I did was hiding myself in my locker in the hostel. I could hear the MC called my name few times during the sport day. As a result, my friend had to replace me as they couldn't find me. This is very exclusive people as I never tell anyone about this till now. I'm so SuperSorry teachers and friends. I was too innocent at that time.hehe


Try to find me in this pic ..hehe

3. Due to my level of IQ, I often been transferred to different classes when I was in high school. Not the good ones though. When I was in Form 1, I was in the 2nd class, form 2, 3rd class, form 3, 5th class. But then, when I was in Form 4 and Form 5 since it depends on your subjects for SPM. Mind you, I took 11 papers for SPM. The funniest part of everything was my dad came to my school when I was in form 3 and that was the 1st time he came for the report card day.So, he thought that I was still in the 2nd class just like when I was in form one. He then went to the 2nd class and asking for me. Obviously, he was pissed off when my teacher said,'Najmin? I know her.She is not from this class. You have to walk to the end of the building to her class'. My teacher tried to be polite as possible and trying not to say like, 'Najmin? Definitely not from this class.Too 'clever' to be in this class.She is in the last class, 3D,'. But then, thanks to my teachers and of course my parent for showing the light when I was in Form 5 so that I turn up to be the person I am right
now ;)

p/s:I still remember what did my science teacher said to me. She said that I won't get A for her subject, science,for PMR as I always skipped her class by 'lepaking' at the toilet.I also loved to eat nasik lemak in my classroom when she was teaching at the front.And yes, Ive got 7As and a B for her subject. I could see her smiled at me when I took my result.Till now, I always remind my students and brothers on the importance of the relationship between a teacher and a student.Do respect your teacher if you want 'Berkat' in your study :)

Chris Brown & Rihanna

The first and the last (it should be the only) concert I've been to when I was in Auckland was a concert performed by Rihanna and Chris Brown. If I'm not mistaken, it was a week after my first Eid (Aidilfitri) in Auckland.

I've got a text from my BF. He told me that Chris Brown was going to Auckland. I was so excited that I still save the text in my hp till now (ok, by now I haven't change my hp for quite numbers of years..dammmn. Will getting a BB soon. Depending on how soon I get the posting.lol)I didn't expect that Rihanna would come along at first. Knowing that, I worked harder and ask my Boss to give me more shift. By that time, I looked like a part time student and a full time worker.I worked for 40 hours for a weeek. Double shifts a day from 8a.m to 4 p.m and from 7p.m to 11 p.m and taddaaaaaa..I bought the tickets.



Well, the funniest part was, I've got a call two days before the concert telling me that i won two free tickets to the concert.lol. I entered a lucky draw in my workplace.I didn't expect that I would get the ticket minus the fact that I kept on asking people whether they wanted their receipt for the 'V' drinks or not so that I could use the receipts and wrote down my name for the lucky draw.FYI,'V' is one of the famous energy drink in NZ but my stomach couldn't handle it well. I prefer the colourful Vitamin drink compared to 'V'. When I was in Auckland, I didn't spend much money on drinks as I always got free drinks. Thanks to Munchy Mart ;)

Okay, back to the concert. The concert was really amazing and memorable. I don't think you are able to see both of them together anywhere in these few years as they are not in a good term rite now.It would be much fun if only I could memorize every single word for every song ;( Here some random pics during the concert.

Of Love and Good Bye

GIRL: Your new girl friend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart)
BOY: Yeah, she is. (But you're still the most beautiful girl I know)
GIRL: I hear she's funny and amazing. (All the stuff I wasn't...)
BOY: She sure is. (But she's nothing compared to you)
GIRL: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Just like you used to know eerything about me)
BOY: Only the stuff that count. (I can't remember what she says when I think of you)
GIRL: Well... I hope you guys last. (Cause we never did)
BOY: I hope we do too. (Whatever happened to me and you?)
GIRL: Well I have to go. (Before I start to cry)
BOY: Yeah me too. (I hope you don't cry)
GIRL: Bye. (I still love you)
BOY: Later. (I never stopped)

Of Posting and Chilling

49 days has passed.And yet, im still at home.Doing nothing.I'm tired when people keep asking me when, where or anything related to the posting because me, myself have no idea about the posting too. Few weeks ago, i would feel like an idiot or a loser when people asked me about posting. The truth is all 129 students in my cohort also don't have any news about our posting. Today,my feeling towards posting is indifferent.I'm tired of waiting and to be honest I have less motivation to teach. I prefer to be at home. Chilling and doing the house chores :P Now, I'm quite occupied with my daily routine. And my dad keep on calling me as his new bibik ;( Mind you, I prefer to be called maid instead of bibik. Make it more interesting, how about 'french maid'? roflmao



9 am - wake up
10 am - play wif the babies and chiko and feed them
11 am - fold all the clothes,wash all the dishes, prepare lunch, sweep and mopping the floor.
2 pm - feed babies and chiko
3 pm - wash clothes
5.30 pm - yoga and push ups time

7 pm - feed babies and chiko
8 pm - watching tv and my internet time
10 pm - feed babies and chiko again

And usually my sleeping time is around 2 a.m.

Okay,u can say that this routine is quite bored and i felt the same too. But, its ok.im used to it rite now. Being at home sometimes can be quite interesting especially when u don't have to spend much of your own money.lol.

You are too Sweet too handle

Okay, on the previous entry I wrote about PMS. A syndrome which quite hard for me to handle. I wrote about PMS since I was going through it tonight. A bit depressing. But, you know what? I think I found my solution already. A thoughtful and a sweet text for my loved one simply able to help me ;)

Hopefully I will always remember this -

"Hi I nk ckp I luv u,hopefully dis msg arrive at 11.11pm on 11.01.11 hehe"


Thank u sweetheart..
Of course, there will be a few problems along the way especially during the time of the month, but I do LOVE u too!!!

PMS

whenever, I've got PMS, I'll normally stress out.I hate the feeling.I wish I could do something about this instead of trying too hard to be positive. But, I read that most of women suffer of this stupid + annoying syndrome.For people around me, I'm so sorry that sometimes I'll be a bit harsh and hard to understand when I've got my PMS.Trust me,I'm so sorry. I'm trying my best not get affected by the syndrome :P

PMS - Possibility Min Stress

It won't only be a dream ;)

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah, it was only just a dream.
So I drive on back, down that road.
When you comin back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now was like I'm at the basement.
Number one spot and now you found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

When I be ridin man I swear I see your face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can't let it burn.
And I just hope you notice you the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss you when will I learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now I'm missin, wishin you'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that you wanted to move on.
Cuz I was wrong.

Along The Line

2011
It has been 17 years.And yet I'm still counting. I'm still thinking and of course I'm still trying to let it go. People say time heals everything. Still time has not prove me anything so far.

I don't know who to blame. It was so long ago, but I know somewhere along the line, it happened because of me. You were really in love and married a very kind and lovely man, But then,I came to your life and suddenly all things got matters.Money,relationship, style ... which you've got to change because of me.

Most people said, it's too painful to loss their moms because of death when they were still young. But,at least, they know and everyone around them knows that their moms loved them. In my case, you left me. You chose to leave. I don't know what hurts the most. The thought that I don't have the chance to know you or the thought of knowing you chose better not to know me.

Yesterday, I saw some Year 1 students went to school for the first time. It always reminds me of you. To tell you the truth, it hurts me badly whenever the memory comes across my mind. I wish you were there on my first day of school like other parents will do. At least, to send me to school.I had to admit that I was the one who woke myself up, ironed my uniform (got my first scar on my arm)and packed my stuff into my school bag.Thanks God, u left my school file on the table so that I could register my own self on my first day at school. Since the Year 1 students had their schooling on the evening session, I had to decide whether I wanted to go to school or to take care of my little sister at home since I always had to take her from the nanny's home at 12 p.m. It was a hard decision to make by a 7 year old girl. Contemplating of going to school but still worried about my sister. But then, I went to school since I couldn't resist the temptation of looking at my friends walked to school with their uniforms hand by hand with their mums and dads. I asked my sister to stay at home and helped her to sleep before I off to school. She was 4 years old back then.

I walked to school by myself and registered my own self. When the teacher asked me, 'where is your mum?', I just could give her my forceful smile. During the day, I just felt like going home. Not because I hate to be at school, but I'm worried about my sister. When the teacher said that I could go home, I walked quickly and found out that my sister was waiting for me at the gate school.

Dear sister,
At that moment, you gave me a hope. You gave me a 'spiritual security'..knowing that someone still watching out for me. You probably don't have any idea about this as you were still young.

Dear Mum,
Most people around me keep on saying I should call you. They said we should keep in touch. The elders said its wrong for me to ignore you.I just can smile and say I will.Nobody knows about this as I keep it. They can say anything but they won't feel the pain that haunting me till now. I just want you to know. I don't blame you.There was no one to blame. Make it simple... it was wrong time and wrong place for us.

Dear 'future me',
Today,I promise myself that one day when I get married ,I'll try my very best not to be the best mum in the world but a mother for my children.

Just Because

Just because you treat me this way
doesn't meant I have to give all up
it hurts
but who cares?
Glad to know
I'm just another option for you